DyingDesu


┊ a cemetery cat brought back to life
┊and a wish for happiness. 

Art by nuupon


Credits

❖【Models】❖
♥ Art Mama: shiri_png
♥ Art Papa (Kawaii model): nuupon
♥ Rig Papa Original + Kawaii models, Chat widget skull: salacitae
♥ VRChat Model: Neli
♥ Pixel Model Art + Rig, Tamagotchi Model Art + Rig, pixel cats: pearlicore
♥ Reactive PNG: AstelusApheli
♥ Pixel Reactive PNG: PrawnSun
❖【Emotes】❖
♥ Twitch Banner, Panels, Emotes: MiyamiShiromi1
♥ Dance Blob Emote: Meruiwii
♥ Bongo Cat Emote + Wiggly Emote: yessicatuber
♥ Boop + HUH Emote: AkumyyArt
♥ Cross Emote: illunaster
♥ Gasp Emote: __ariru
♥ Tail Wag Emote: RainenLeaf
♥ Love Beam Emote: EightyEightIDN
♥ Smug Emote: misoramengirl, gifted by MetalGearPanda9000
♥ Snowberry Buffer + Snowberry Dab Emote: Stealthy_Mouse
♥ Yass Emote: kawaiibrittanii
♥ Snowberry Nodders Emote: naivecandy
❖【Overlays + Backgrounds】❖
♥ Just Chatting + BRB + Gaming Overlays: smolshushi
♥ Chat Widget + Glass Heart Widget: milaeshop
♥ Night/Day Abandoned Church BGs: Omorphia1
♥ Chair Asset + Skull + Desk + Night/Day Room BGs: SaruMars
♥ Cute Spooky Overlay: l__gfx
❖【Stinger + Screens】❖
♥ Night Stinger + Floating Heart Overlay: akumiishi
♥ Night Stinger Art: mssclio
♥ Stinger Art: bakuatsukiyu
♥ Pixel Starting + Ending Screens: okutaphutafu
♥ .hack// Inspired Transition: SpookySony
❖【Alerts】❖
♥ Pixel Follow/Sub/Bits Alerts: Yumipiku
♥ Pixel Raid Alert: GataStarry
♥ Pixel Hype Train Alert: aerohail
♥ Sound Alert FX: Grim Fables
❖【Pixels】❖
♥ Pixel Gym Leader, Pokemon Infinite Fusion Sprites: stealthymouse_
♥ Badges, Pixel wow dying: Pink_Cannibal
♥ Pixel Mini Dying: PastelStormveil
♥ Pixel Walking Bean: @Acccel_
❖【BGM】❖
♥ Current BGM is: Stream Cafe
♥ Starting Soon BGM: Koruu
❖【Extras】❖
♥ Icon: ark_evil02
♥ Apex Plaque: CavalairVT
♥ Gacha Redeem Items Art: arunyi
♥ Main Logo: Astra
♥ Stamp Logo: Inchii


『𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔦𝔯 𝔢𝔰 𝔳𝔦𝔳𝔦𝔯』

She is very tired.
The moon rises, blesses wretched corners of the cemetery, casts light on cold stone and gnarled vines. This land is old– names are faded, dates long forgotten.
And she knows not her own name,
nor how long she has been here.
She only knows that she is very tired.
Up, she looks, up seems so high now where she was once nimble, agile. Heights not feared, but revered in the challenge. But her tiny paws are dirty, weathered from a life beyond a home.
Regardless, she makes it to the top of the sarcophagus, but quickly finds herself on her back, exhausted beneath the stars. Her golden eyes close, body held in what feels like sleep.
A dream she has had before.
Where it all changes again.
Somewhere else, somewhere new.
To live with vitality…
but it is
slowly, slowly
fading.
“Oh, what do we have here?”
Clear, yet so distant. A chuckle resounds, but the little one cannot move.
“It’s not time for you to go just yet.”

..
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Art by Myuutew

The voice fades into oblivion, that beautiful space the little one knows just before she tumbles into form. But this time,
this time,
she remains; remains [contained]
coffinless
a cemetery cat
morningless in her body anew.
She breathes a lungful of morning, the sun breaking the horizon line in viscous pastel, and those golden eyes open to see. A garden abandoned, but loved by the sky, the rain, nothing in vain in this silent corner of modernity.
Strawberries.
“Dying.”
Somehow, she understands.
The finality of the word, sanctioned for losing, loss, going beyond.
The end.
“Your name is Dying.”
Yes, it is. To be. To live is to do the same.
She turns towards the voice, suddenly looking at a ghost, familiar in feline, with skulls in their phantom irises.
“What will you do now?”
She looks over at the fields, grass green over the dead, filled with silence. What may have been, what could have been. The spectral cat waits patiently for a response. Dying turns her head, confident in existence, exigence in words escaping:
“I vow to bring them happiness.
Even now.
I will try to make them proud.”
[Written by DyingDesu]

[More story coming soon!]

Art by ewmi

About DyingDesu

Art by nuupon

My name is Dying— a reincarnated cemetery cat, brought back to life with a wish...
I have been close to death and fear it.
However, everyone should have a guide into the great beyond, regardless of their fate and judgement thereafter. I am only a cemetery cat, but one with purpose - to share kindness, happiness, and wisdom that I have gained to, hopefully, make this journey through life a little easier.
My content is mainly Just Chatting streams, and sometimes cozy+fun games, with a focus on community and connection. I stream every day, but my schedule can be sporadic with real life obligations and my health. So, just know we'll see each other at some point in the day!Because of chronic illness and mental health diagnoses, I often do not have opportunities to leave the house or do many of the things the average person might get to do! But thankfully, the online world has allowed me to see and learn so much more than I ever thought I could. I am constantly amazed by the kindness of others and will continue to do my best!

  DyingDesu    •⩊•    she / her     EST / GMT-5  

💗💀Oshi Mark explanation:
💗 I love pink and I have a lot of love to give
💀 Representation of the deceased (chat), and because I'm a cemetery cat!

Likes

♥ Pokémon
♥ Cute Things
♥ Photography
♥ Creative Writing
♥ Rainy Weather

Food

♥ Strawberries
♥ Chashu Bowl w/ Fried Rice
♥ Salads

Anime

♥ Beyond the Boundary
♥ Anohana
♥ Zoids
♥ .hack//Sign
♥ Frieren

DISLIKES

✖ Wasps
✖ Hot weather
✖ Cilantro
✖ Rude people
✖ Dark places

MOVIES

♥ Constantine
♥ The Menu
♥ The Girl Who Leapt Through Time

Games

♥ .hack//
♥ Nier series
♥ Apex
♥ Pokemon

Hobbies

♥ Penpaling
♥ Photography
♥ Collecting Vtuber keychains
♥ Writing

Art by Inchii

Fascinations and Machinations
(Under construction)

001 Religious themes, iconography, and visuals. Different version/concepts of places of worship/prayer. Abandoned places, especially cemeteries and churches. Stained glass. Complicated expressions of heaven, hell, and in-between/limbo. Angels of all iterations and interpretations; be not afraid, look upon me and envision madness, small creature that one can look at without fear, etc.

002 Strange realities, liminal spaces, time loops/blips in time, and how messing with order can corrupt (see first section for how I love the concept of merging the two).* A glitch in the system. An intertwining of past, present, and future. Altered dimensions and a crossing of what could have been and what will become.
*See: P.T. (PS3), Silent Hill series, Death Stranding.

003 The macabre and oddities (but not necessarily horror). Skulls, bones, decay. A vessel left behind, a world that continues to grow around it. How blood can be both vitality and infected with sickness. Mortality, existential confrontation, and how one finds purpose in the difficulties placed upon us as humans.

004 Literature; abstraction, the human condition, psychological horror, metaphors, non-linear, experimental.
Ergodic literature is a special interest of mine and typically how I write.
Literature: House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski
Poetry: Crush by Richard Siken
Other: Mary Stuart's Ravenishment Descending Time: Prose Symphony by Georgiana Peacher

005 Music I enjoy listening to regularly: Dance Gavin Dance, Queens of the Stone Age, Mastodon, Bad Omens, Maximum The Hormone, Spiritbox, Fair to Midland...

Music that I think represents how I feel and experience the world: Chevelle, inabakumori, Grimes, Purity Ring, TOBACCO, V V Brown, Of Mice & Men, Low Roar, Florence and The Machine...

006 Light; a change in frequencies; speaking to ghosts. Halos and the morning seeping beneath a half-closed door. Mirrors, reflections, introspections and the cosmos. Postscripts and everything thereafter. There is no such thing as goodbye, truly.

007 Crowns, past lives, Joan of Arc. Ascension, Patron Saint of Home, my grandmother. To leave love behind and beyond. Reverence, hands lifted towards the sun, or fingerprints upon the earth. Blood spilled, a birthmark is made in the next life in remembrance. Tell stories of those gone as they can no longer write it here. Find fate, decisions made, twist the path before you. You will know all you need to know, in the end.

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DyingDesu ref sheet

Art by Shiri

Snowberry ref sheet

Art by Arunyi

Contact

dyingdesubusiness@gmail.com